Revelation Of The Day:

I take the atmosphere and attitudes around me and make it/them my own. It's frustrating for two reasons: 1) it demonstrates that I am not as strong a personality as I'd like to think I am, and 2) it makes me subject to the bad moods and bad ideas surrounding me.

I unconsciously choose nice people to be around for precisely this reason. If I spend enough time around competent, calm people, I eventually come to believe that I am one of them. However, put me in the opposite environment for 5 minutes, and I'm feeling bad about myself and running around like a chicken with my head cut off in no time.

Argh.

There's too much stress here - it's not my fault and has little or nothing to do with me, but I am suffering from the anxiety anyway.