Yet another piece of evidence that JessaJune and I are the same person, which is why we are rarely seen in the same place at the same time. We seem to be living much the same lives (or at least we're facing much the same issues and decisions).

Better to make a decision, and make it yourself, and deal with the consequences of your own making, isn’t it, then to force, nay manipulate, others to make your decisions for you?

And why can I see that so clearly, yet still not want to do it?

So easy to slough off the responsibility of the decision to someone else. But I know why I don't want to do it.