Well, it's over.

I can't believe the void I feel in my heart right now. I know I'll get over this. And I know that I'll be ok. But in the meantime, I hurt. All I can think about is the empty space he's leaving in my life, how long it's going to be empty, and when I find someone to fill the emptiness again, it won't be him.

Typing is difficult when you're crying. And I can't seem to stop. Crying, that is.

You know, I was ready for this last week. I wasn't ready for it tonight, dammit.

It's not that we're not going to be friends. We'll be friends. That's how it started out, and there's no reason not to continue. It's just that, in a 'friends with benefits' sort of relationship, there was a lot of affection that I can't see being appropriate now, given that we've gone back to just being friends.

God, I now know the pain of the phrase "just friends". Let me never use the phrase on someone else again without understanding what it means to a heart in love.

Ok, this is weak and I'm not entirely certain it's something that I should be blogging, so this is all I'm going to say about it.