Ambivalent. It's My Word of the Day.

Roommie is planning on moving away by the end of the year. I'm conflicted for her sake as well as mine - she left the interview for the job in Seattle with a bad taste in her mouth, yet she thinks this is the only opportunity she'll be offered, so she's willing to go for it. I don't want her to go into a situation that will be more unpleasant than the one she's in here, but she's come to really look forward to taking the job. The change and the opportunity to buy a house is good for her, and I'm happy for her. As for me, I need to think about a new living situation. Again. I thought I had at least six more months to not think about this.

I'm not dating. On the one hand, it's a bad idea for me to date right now, so this is good. On the other hand, my continued failure? bad luck? misfortune? in this area is starting to get to me, and make me wonder if I'll ever have the opportunity to experience a "normal" romantic relationship again. A part of me says I'm being silly and of course it'll happen. Another part tells me to just be happy being single, and find my joy in my friends. Hmph.

All my concerns and stresses come out of these two aspects of my life. And nothing but time will take care of either.