I think there may be something wrong with my priorities. It's just a suspicion, mind you, but ... well, I'll write about it here.

My friends have organized a Beer Train tomorrow. I've blogged it, I've announced it to the world at large. You all should know what the Beer Train is by now. This will be my third Beer Train.

The first was about a year ago. I had previously shunned this event as something obviously pandering to the alcoholics in the group, and suitable only for getting grossly drunk and making fools of the people involved. I guess I didn't realize how much fun that could be.

The second was last April. I overdid it from the beginning, when there was a miscommunication about the beer and I started off with two beers in front of me, rather than the one I had planned on beginning slowly with. It went downhill from there, with me getting pretty wasted by the time we got to Palo Alto, where I had to be pulled from the festivities for a while so that I could eat something and stop feeling so sick. We left early.

I have been looking forward to this particular trip for a long time, knowing that this time I'll get it right, and be able to manage the perfect buzz all day/night long without feeling sick. I am also determined not to leave early, as I'm sure I missed a lot last time by quittin' before most others had done so.

But this time, there is someone who'd like to spend time with me on Sunday. Preferably Sunday morning, so that we can have as much time together as possible. And what did I tell him?? I'd like to, but I don't know how I'm going to feel about being generally conscious, much less driving on Sunday. I also told him that I've been looking forward to this for much longer than I've known him.

Part of me says I need to do the Beer Train. Another part of me says get over it, take the opportunity you've been offered to be with someone who likes you. Ah well, knowing me and my legendary lack of tolerance for alcohol, it won't take much to get me drunk in the first place, and then I'll be able to hang out with him the next day as planned. Yeah, that's probably what will happen.