Well, I feel like I've been rendered jobless today. I may be brought back into the world of full pay and bonuses within a short time. But no one's sure about that, despite everyone desperately wanting it to be so. This is just the kind of limbo that can rob me of all motivation and leave me truly unemployed at the end of the 4 weeks of enforced "vacation" that I now have.

I must admit, I knew this was coming, despite the shiny veneer of denial that I have maintained in front of everyone for many a month. Even so, the more I think about it, the more depressing it becomes, and the more I think about having to find another job, the worse I feel.

However, I am determined to take this as an unlooked-for (to say the least) opportunity to examine my goals and ideals and search out a job that can maybeperhapshopefully provide some satisfaction in those areas.

In the meantime, I'll be cleaning my personal stuff off this computer, working on the site, playing games, and making lists of what I have to do with all the free time I'll have next week. And the week after. Ugh ... and the two weeks after that.

Oh, and if I've bought tickets for anyone recently, it would be great to get the money for those as soon as possible. The credit cards still need to be paid, regardless of my career situation. Thanks!