Alone, left out, left behind, unneeded, unwanted, bipolar - all sorts of happy feelings swirling around in my head, and the tendency to cry doesn't help. The floodgates have been open all weekend and there's no sign of a letup in the flow.

But my papers are sorted out and my checkbook is balanced and the porch is swept and the plants have been watered and almost all my clothes have been put away, and this makes me feel a bit more prepared for the week ahead, which promises to be stressful, short as it is.

Oh, and I decided to boycott events that I have not been invited to. Being assured that they neglected to invite me specifically because they intended that someone else would bring me just isn't enough anymore. We're not dating anymore, folks. I sent out invites tonight and made sure to include *everyone* I wanted to attend.

So there. Like I said, all sorts of happy feelings tonight. Maybe some food will help balance things out. Time for dinner.

And it's true what they say. Country music is not good for heartache. "There's a tear in my beer" and all that. *sigh*