Hey, Jealousy

As you may or may not be aware, I'm not a jealous person. I am a firm believer in wanting what you have rather than having what you want ... or wanting what others have, for that matter.

This is not to say that I haven't looked at someone else and thought, wow, I really like what they have and one day it would be nice to have something like it for myself. As a not-particularly-original person, I rely on the example of others for inspiration in my own life.

Lately, however, I find myself holding certain other people responsible for having things that I want. Even unsubstantial things like the perfect relationship, ambition, or an ordered life. I look at these people and I resent them for having these things that I want so much.

I don't like it.