Cryptic post of the year:

So have you ever wanted something, and wanted it for a long time, but never did anything about it for any number of inadequate reasons, and then the moment came when opportunity and nerve and the stars came together and you stretched out your hand for it, and found that it wasn't meant to be after all?

So yeah. But you know what? At least I tried, so there's no more 'what if' and 'maybe' and I can look in another direction with my whole heart.